fine. fine. papasok na ko sa class. foundation naman kasi.

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i've been thinking. how i suck at everything i do. please please even just with this last competition this year. i myt do it well. i myt not suppress myself. i must leave the lying low profile for now. please. damn it. i hate holding back.

no motivation kasi.

nah, it's just that i lack something i can't probably name-it. i can't still stop the numbness...the fear that if I let them know who really I am, I myt be isolated more than ever...and the elite-view that they myt manifest...(i just wanna be some normal being) and because i can't accept some verities at the moment.

how pathetic. how boring. i can't even step out of my flaws. out of these weaknesses. out of this chambers of smokes and guns.

i can win it. nuh-uh. i am going to win it.       aja!

{ mood } hungry

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