fine. fine. papasok na ko sa class. foundation naman kasi.

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i've been thinking. how i suck at everything i do. please please even just with this last competition this year. i myt do it well. i myt not suppress myself. i must leave the lying low profile for now. please. damn it. i hate holding back.

no motivation kasi.

nah, it's just that i lack something i can't probably name-it. i can't still stop the numbness...the fear that if I let them know who really I am, I myt be isolated more than ever...and the elite-view that they myt manifest...(i just wanna be some normal being) and because i can't accept some verities at the moment.

how pathetic. how boring. i can't even step out of my flaws. out of these weaknesses. out of this chambers of smokes and guns.

i can win it. nuh-uh. i am going to win it.       aja!

{ mood } hungry

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after tomorrow maybe, i myt be gone from the virtual portals for a while....

i am gonna miss this notebook so much.

well, there's the presscon, the preliminary quizzes, and the preliminary exams hunting the days. yes. yes. at least the one thing just chasing and not hunting is the upcoming dawn masses. yey! i am counting already.

{ book } mangafox for a minute
{ mood } anxious

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don't quit.

remember: yesterday is a history. tomorrow is a mystery. but today is a gift.

that's why it is called "present".

{ book } superpets
{ show } The Bourne Supremacy
{ mood } complacent

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